Tuesday, September 30, 2014

and when you fail continually

and when you arrive here
do not be afraid
instead smile
for you have been brave
and fought through the fog
to arrive at clarity
and shame
that dog that barks
at your heels
has been shooed away


and when you arrive here
with the stones that you carry in the words
when you lay the words down in stories
that hurt
when you put the stories down in a path
of glory that leads from hell to here
do not think
that this is a small matter
you have been brave
and when you fail continually   it is really a victory

and when you arrive here
to find the ending to be the same
no matter what you do
surely you understand
that it was your response that was needed?
surely you understand that fear and shame
were not avoided?
surely you see that courage is a skyscraper
that reaches the clouds when you work at it?
you have been brave    and this is all that is needed

Go Susan go! ---In Calgary Elbow, Susan Wright has been successfully nominated to represent us.



From: "Alberta Liberals" <office@albertaliberal.com>
To: "Julie Ali" <julie.ali@
Sent: Tuesday, September 30, 2014 7:21:46 PM
Subject: Liberal Party Up date


Hello Alberta Liberals,

I would like to express my sincere appreciation on behalf of the Executive for all the hard work and volunteer hours that made our Policy convention on the weekend a success.   Thanks to the original work done by Keegan Wynychuk and then continued by the incoming VP Policy Jonathan Huckabay – Liberals were part of a well-attended and lively Policy Convention.   The role of our VP Constituency, Peter Willott as recording Secretary and Regional Chairs Pete Helfrich and Harpreet
Singh Gill were also significant to the success of the weekend.

You can expect to see the final version of our 2014 Policy Book  posted by end of  week.  (Please provide address of where policy will be found)

By-Elections
As most of you are aware by elections have been called in the following Constituencies: Calgary Foothills, Calgary Elbow, Calgary West and Edmonton Whitemud.   Thank you to the Executive and Board of Directors who met over the summer months to ensure we have a Nominating Committee and rules in place.
In Calgary Elbow, Susan Wright has been successfully nominated to represent us.   Please stay tuned for announcements of other candidates as they are announced.  The Executive and our Leader Dr. Raj Sherman are working hard to ensure that we have great candidates and successful campaigns.   Calgary Elbow and Edmonton Whitemud have been designated as priority Ridings.

Liberal friends,  if there was ever a  time to get involved in campaigning, it is now!   Please support our Calgary and Edmonton candidates with your time and or your dollars.

The only way to make a difference and to gain the confidence of voting Albertans, is, if we all get involved.

Looking forward to successful campaigns and making a difference!

Sincerely,

Shelley Wark Martyn , President Alberta Liberal Party

Alberta Liberal Party · 10247 124 St Nw, Edmonton, AB T5N 1P8, Canada
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and when you arrive / at the peak

and when you arrive 
at the peak
you think you have had enough
pain and fear
to last a century
but then
the Muse smiles
he hands you another pile of leaflets
to write
and indicates
that there is no end
to the work
you are not exempt
from the mountain
that appears magically
before you
or the climb again
to the top


and when you arrive
at the door
you think that perhaps now
you have deserved a respite
that the story is complete finally
but after you pass through that door
you come upon another door
and successively pass through the portals
of thousands of challenges until
the last one
this is to say
there is no end to the demands
that will be made
you must keep going
despite adversity
you must understand that this is the way
and so accept 
the matter of the repeating door
the mountain range
the solid force of the weight that you will carry
and keep going 
necessary is the work to arrive to where 
you still   and see clearly 




What part will Israel play in fighting Isis??

The end of the day is especially nice because I have time to read now. The boys have had a snack. Older boy is having a nap. Younger boy is working on his English; at least this is his story as he works on his computer.
I have made a cup of tea and I am waiting for the boys to finish up their odd jobs and go to bed.
Then I will go to visit my sister at the Good Samaritan extended care.
I am getting used to this odd sort of life.

Inside the bubble of family it is easy to forget that the world is a basket case.
I offer you all some of Stewart Shield's findings. Surely, you think there would be some brains in the folks in the Middle East?  But no. They go on with their dumb stances of enemy and enemy. I'm afraid I don't think this way. There are folks who are dark and they are psychopaths but I don't think of them as the enemy. I think they should be managed and made into less powerful entities. But certainly there are dark people in the Western nations and in Israel itself so why would I consider Arabs of a certain group monsters?  We can all become monsters if we have been savaged enough.

Here is the posturing by Israel that Stewart has sent me and it has an interesting point in it. The Syrian dictator is now on our side--or we are on his side After seeing the children killed by the Assad folks it is hard to feel comfortable with this sort of unholy alliance. And knowing that Israel has killed so many Palestinian children and adults how is it possible to feel comfortable aligning ourselves with Israel?  In the end, we end up with harm done to the "enemy" or who is designated the "enemy". And the enemy changes from one conflict to the next.

http://www.thestar.com/news/world/2014/09/29/hamas_and_islamic_state_on_par_netanyahu.html

Syria’s foreign minister, Walid Al-Moallem, told the General Assembly earlier that those battling terrorism — the West and former Arab enemies — were now fighting on the same side as the Assad regime, something that gives the West pause.

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It may be true that that Hamas and ISIS are similar in their brutal works; but I would say that the US, Canada and Israel are no different when it suits these countries.
All governments will do what they will to ensure that they stay in power.
And who are the end game victims?
Innocent civilians who have no way to escape the turmoil.

While Hamas may have done what the Israeli prime minister says they did -which is use human shields this doesn't mean that Israel should have fired at the human shields and killed ordinary civilians such as the children on the beach that I wrote about earlier.

http://www.thestar.com/news/world/2014/09/29/hamas_and_islamic_state_on_par_netanyahu.html

Dramatizing the point by holding up an image of what he said was a Hamas rocket launcher in an area near children, Netanyahu added that the militants —who won a parliamentary election in 2006 — “cynically used Palestinian civilians” as shields by stockpiling rockets in mosques and even hospitals and firing from populated areas.
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In my mind, such conflicts are all about resources.
We are brought into these conflicts to protect our own interests.
In the Middle East, it has always been about the oil.
Never about the human beings.
And it will continue this way until the folks in the area grow up and intelligently divide up the landscape so all can get a piece of the pie.

The hypocrisy of the world leaders and that of Israel's prime minister is astounding always.
How can he say that the victims are responsible for the murders that have been inflicted by Israel?
Sorry I mean casualties. We have to watch our language here. The fact is when Israel kills Palestinian kids they are called the casualties --of war.
But when Hamas kills Israeli kids--they are called murders and they result in hypercasualties of Palestinian kids.

As for this mummy?
I can't tell the difference between Palestinian and Israeli kids.
They all bleed and die in the same way.

Brutality creates brutality.
If the Assad regime wanted to create ISIS --it showed them the way by being brutal first.
As for the folks in Israel?
They just need to look into the mirror and looking back will be the faces of the folks belonging to Hamas.

Kindness and love are all forgotten in this mess.
Cooperation, forgiveness and yes, unselfishness would help.
Intelligence and ethical behavior would be a spinal cord.
But instead of vertebral creatures all we have are jelly fish and octopi floppy on a beach of death.

From: "Stewart Shields" <lagran@shaw.ca>
To: "dnd mdn" <dnd_mdn@forces.gc.ca>
Cc: "Alberta Activism" <albertaactivism@shaw.ca>, "goodale" <goodale.r@parl.gc.ca>, "mccallum" <mccallum.j@parl.gc.ca>, "Peter - M.P. Julian" <Julian.P@parl.gc.ca>, premier@gov.nl.ca, "Prime ministre" <pm@pm.gc.ca>, "raitt" <raittl@parl.gc.ca>, "T Banks" <Tbanks@telusplanet.net>, "thomas mulcair" <thomas.mulcair@parl.gc.ca>
Sent: Tuesday, September 30, 2014 6:27:49 PM
Subject: Hamas and Islamic State on par: Netanyahu | Toronto Star

Canada must be very careful how it approaches the U.S. request for more help to fight Isis!!   We must question if indeed this war is actually a simple extension of the illegal Iraqi war started by Bush jr., and avoided by Chretien of Canada-to save Canada the embarrassment United States suffers!!  Lets remember Harper was “good to go” into the illegal Iraqi war with the wild-eyed Bush Jr.- simply because Mossad had given U.S. security forces the wrong information with respect to weapons of mass destruction held by the Iraqi's??  Again we find Netanyahu talking up a war that will change the geography of the Mid-East, and trying to expand the war to include his enemy Hamas, that wants to free Gaza from Netanyahu’s domination!! 
 
Gaza is not done fighting for their freedom, even if the rest of the world turns a blind eye to the Jewish domination, and the stealing of Gaza’s off shore natural gas holdings!!   What part will Israel play in fighting Isis??  How many refugees can other world members count on Israel accepting??  Canada must clearly weigh what took place in Iraqi, and if this is simply a result and continuation to the strife started by Bush Jr. from bad information passed from Mossad to United States security forces??
Our twin idiots of Harper and Baird may be too easily influenced by Netanyahu, who is looking to advance Israel’s advantage and cares not about Canada. The fact that it was Jewish forces not Hamas-- that Murdered an unarmed Canadian Major, serving with U.N. forces during Israel’s 2006 invasion of Lebanon, must also be weighed when balancing anything Netanyahu has to advance??   Will Canadian forces fight for a Canada lead by Harper-- after the disastrous after effects of the Afghanistan mission??Can we blame our forces if they show less than enthusiasm for another Mid-East war to make Harper look good, after the treatment he has offered those coming home with sickness?? Does Canada deserve an military effort after our government and opposition parties refuse to question Harper on the circumstances of our Majors death at the hands of Jewish forces--who were warned repeatedly they were attaching U.N. members in a well marked U.N. bunker??? Was our Major murdered for reporting war crimes against Jewish forces?? Was Harper complicit in covering up this Major’s murder??
 
Stewart Shields

Hamas and Islamic State on par: Netanyahu | Toronto Star

In a hard-hitting speech to the UN General Assembly Monday, Israeli Prime Minister Benjamin Netanyanu denounced the militant Palestinian faction Hamas as the equivalent of Islamic State Sunni extremists who have murdered their way across the Middle East. And he lumped Iran’s Shiite clerical regime with a conglomerate of terrorist groups seeking Islamic world domination.
“ISIS (The Islamic State) and Hamas are branches of the same poisonous tree,” he said. “ISIS and Iran share a fanatical creed, which they both seek to impose well beyond the territory under their control.”
He added, “the Nazis believed in a master race, militant Islamists believe in a master faith.”
Israel has been widely criticized for its actions in a 50-day war against Hamas in Gaza, which it says was necessary to end rocket attacks into Israel by Hamas.
The more than 2,100 casualties in the densely populated strip brought accusations of indiscriminate bombing and shelling, denounced as “genocide” by Palestinian leader Mahmoud Abbas in an earlier UN speech.
Netanyahu hit back at Abbas, saying he was responsible for “war crimes” committed by coalition partner Hamas. He said that Israel had warned Palestinians in advance of attacks and “was doing everything to minimize casualties, Hamas was doing everything to maximize civilian casualties.”
Israeli Prime Minister Benjamin Netanyahu holds a photo of an alleged Hamas rocket launcher in an area near children as he addresses the UN General Assembly in New York on Monday.
TIMOTHY A. CLARY / AFP/GETTY IMAGES
Israeli Prime Minister Benjamin Netanyahu holds a photo of an alleged Hamas rocket launcher in an area near children as he addresses the UN General Assembly in New York on Monday.
Dramatizing the point by holding up an image of what he said was a Hamas rocket launcher in an area near children, Netanyahu added that the militants —who won a parliamentary election in 2006 — “cynically used Palestinian civilians” as shields by stockpiling rockets in mosques and even hospitals and firing from populated areas.
Netanyahu offered no new initiatives for peace with the Palestinians, but stressed that any territorial compromise must leave Israel able to defend itself.
The thrust of his speech was to rally the international community against both Hamas and Iran, which he said shared the global aims of the Islamic State, carrying out dozens of terrorist attacks outside its borders.
If Iran’s nuclear program went unchecked, he said, “the world’s most dangerous regime in the world’s most dangerous region would obtain the world’s most dangerous weapon.”
Instead of a peace plan, Netanyahu suggested a regional security accord with Arab neighbours who have a common goal of defeating terrorism. The spread of terrorism, he said, presented “a historic opportunity” for co-operation.
Israel was not the only country attempting to reshuffle the diplomatic deck after the Islamic State’s rise.
Syria’s foreign minister, Walid Al-Moallem, told the General Assembly earlier that those battling terrorism — the West and former Arab enemies — were now fighting on the same side as the Assad regime, something that gives the West pause.
Nor did Moallem protest airstrikes on the Islamic State inside Syria by a U.S.-led coalition, but warned they would not succeed unless coupled with an end to support for funding and training “terrorist groups.”
In a speech aimed at positioning the pariah state in the fold of counter-terrorism, he said “it is due time to pool all our efforts against this terrorism, since imminent danger is surrounding everyone and no country is immune to it.”
Syria is ready for a political solution including “dialogue with all honourable national opposition members opposing terrorism in Syria,” he said, pointing to a widely disputed presidential election as proof that the government of Bashar Assad had renewed legitimacy to negotiate.
The war in Syria began in 2011 after the Assad regime attacked protesters, whom it claimed were foreign terrorists. Since then unrest spiralled and the Islamic State made major gains. More than 191,000 people have died, 2 million have fled as refugees and at least 6 million are internally displaced.

Subject: negligence



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Sent: Tuesday, September 30, 2014 2:34:23 PM
Subject: negligence

Dear Ms. Janet Davidson,

As you know I have a meeting on Friday October 3, 2014 at 3:00 pm with someone from AHS (I don't know where I put that e-mail from Pam) and Pam as well as someone else from the Good Samaritan.

So here is the thing.
I am a stay at home mummy.
I never expected to be in the situation I am now in and frankly I am a bit confused.

There has been that list of adverse events and problems that is just for 2014 that I have found out and reported to all of you since I think this is a big thing (my sister is well loved by her family even though we are bossy with her).
These adverse events and problems have been like an ocean that has almost drowned my handicapped sister.
Because she has been drowning, I finally had to get off my duff and do the life boat thing ---so this is why I am yapping to you.

This year, I decided to take over the care of my sister from my ancient father who is even more innocent about medical malpractice than I am.
 I mean he is an old school physician who will do anything for his patients.
Once you are Dr. Ali's patients you are always Dr. Ali's patients.
That's the kind of medicine and medical system we believed in.
So our family was under the belief that everyone operated in this ethical and professional way.
We trusted the staff at the Good Samaritan extended care.
This trust was misplaced--at least I think it was misplaced because this is  a very disorganized organization and it is putting patients in danger because they can't get their act together.

When I put my sister in this place we had problems early on in 2010 but then I left the mess with my dad and only got involved in 2014 when there was yapping about the mask from nurses.
These problems with my sister not using the mask and the mask falling apart were all blamed on her.
When William Taylor -that last facility manager told me that all these problems with my sister were because she was non-compliant, I blamed my sister.
When I found out about the BIPAP mask not being replaced from 2010 to 2014; about the mask being ancient and made of parts---he told me that this was because there was no money--that Patient Care Based Funding was responsible for the lack of funds for yearly mask replacements, I believed him. So dumb but there you go.
When he told me that the problems of the BIPAP machine not having a data card in it were due to the problems with the respiratory therapist being on long term sick leave, I believed that story too.

But here I am today, with more information.
I have been doing downloads of the machine that replaced the broken machine that I discovered with the useless mask on March 12, 2014.
I also have the other pieces of information that I managed to acquire about the staff themselves.
I know that when I told William Taylor and Sandy Burnham (the social worker) that I was going to send the bill for the BIPAP mask to the minister of health (Mr. Horne) they paid up.
I know that when Vitalaire reported the problems with  the last BIPAP machine not having the data card so that they were unable to provide me with any record of compliance or the effectiveness of therapy--then William Taylor magically found a brand new BIPAP machine that was in storage at the facility-- and it has a data card.
So why was my sister using an old machine that had a broken plug in without a data card? Was this to ensure that there was no record of the failures of staff and the respiratory therapist?
These pieces of information on the staff were useful because they told me something was not quite right about this situation.

Then when I got the new machine and did the downloads myself (since no one else wanted a record of the history of my sister's care except me)---there was that major problem of the first adverse event. The first adverse event records the machine being off for 55 days out of 60 days. My sister ended up in 5E3 at the University of Alberta Hospital as a consequence of this adverse event.

 At this time I still had not clued into the data card download information. I thought this download meant that she did not wear the mask for 55 days out of 60 days. What the result actually meant was that no one had put on the BIPAP machine at the facility.
Then they sent her back to the Good Samaritan Extended care facility.  The new facility manager farts around for two weeks before getting me to change the BIPAP machine setting. Another adverse event.
I mean what sort of responsible long term care facility waits two weeks to change the setting on a BIPAP machine and then doesn't pay Vitalaire to do this but gets it done for free by getting family to do this work? But there you go.
We had some problems retaining a respiratory therapist for one shift per week. I don't know if the therapist does come in or not since last week I waited every day and I did not see her. She must have been sick all week. It is hard to find that therapist as she is so odd in her hours.

In any case, I decided to do the work of a 24 hour/ 7 days per week respiratory therapist. They used to have this sort of coverage but then they went to 0.4 shifts and now we are down to one shift. Soon there will just be a stay at home mummy doing respiratory work at the Good Samaritan and everyone will  be dead so it won't matter.
But let me not be mean.
Still believing that the problem was mask use, I went and observed staff putting the mask on her every night without thinking of checking if the machine was on.
I did data card downloads.
The first one after the discharge was reasonable.
The next one was not.
Despite the fact that I was there every night (except when I went to Jasper with my family for our yearly camping trip)--there was a period of 17 days out of 30 days when the machine was off.
This is the third adverse event.
By now I am puzzled and confused.
It takes me so long to get it.
There was a problem and it wasn't that my sister wasn't wearing her mask.
She was wearing her mask.
So where was the problem?

I was confused by this matter.
A third adverse event?
What does this mean?
How is it possible?
It took me a long time to figure it out.
I am slow.
Also the readings on the data card download have to be explained to me repeatedly--- before I can understand it.
I am still in the process of understanding it.
A dark color means the mask and machine are on.
An even darker color on the download means that the mask is off, the machine is still on.

But when there is white only--this means that the machine is off.
If the machine is off it doesn't matter if the mask is on or off does it?
So what was I to think?
I am still thinking.
Sure looks like negligence to me.
But what do you think?
Two adverse events of the BIPAP machine being off.
This time around my sister spends the day in the Emergency room of the Grey Nuns Hospital where I explain to the staff there that the machine was not put on for 17 days. Everyone wonders why.
I do too.

I am curious.
I will think about the questions I will ask on Friday.
I will get the FOIP request ready.
I will prepare a request for the medical records for my sister that AHS will liberate to me.
I will spend some time between my real life job as a stay at home mummy to see why the long term care system is  bent on killing my handicapped sister.
Of course I may be mistaken.
All these adverse events may be interpreted in the ways I have been told by various folks.
One physician at the Gray Nuns emergency says it is a machine problem.
I have ruled out that possibility-- by checking for five days both machine and mask use by staff and the download indicates to me at least the machine is fine.
Besides which I have taken the machine in to Vitalaire every month and more since March 12, 2014 and if there was a machine defect it would have shown up by now don't you think?
Another physician says she needs more supervision.
She sure does.
And she needs this supervision while the staff are putting on the mask and the machine.
I would say that the respiratory therapist needs to be doing what I am doing which is ensuring that the machine is on and the mask is on.
I even take photographs each night of the program running so that I have a date stamp of the machine functioning and that I have checked staff putting it on properly.

But again why am I doing your job?
I would say the entire facility should be investigated by AHS to ensure that other patients are not being slowly killed off.
I would say you need to be involved.
Sure looks like a case of negligence to me.
I may be wrong.
I mean I am just a simple stay at home mummy.
I may just be completely dumb about this mess and have it all muddled up.
I will listen to the folks from AHS and the Good Samaritan explain to me the results of all these data card downloads on Friday.
Could this be the reason why the physicians involved in my sister's care vanished?
Could this be the reason why William Taylor got promoted?
Could all this staff movement  be connected? Even the facility physician who was supposed to be taking care of my sister got a job at the Gray Nuns Hospital and vamoosed.

So curious.
I will be patient (which is so hard) and wait for everyone to answer my questions.

Then I will have to do that mammoth investigation of all the data that both the Good Samaritan extended care and the AHS folks will be nice enough to hand over in a prompt fashion so that I do not have to lodge a complaint with the Office of the Information and Privacy Commissioner of Alberta for foot dragging on the medical files.

I also hope there will be no massive costs associated with these requests for as you all know my sister is a severely handicapped adult on AISH and we have very little cash to work with.
Most of her AISH stipend goes to the Good Samaritan extended care and an orphan she supports in the Third World.
It's pretty amazing that the biggest hearts are in the most damaged people.
But I digress.
I am sure you will look into this matter and keep tabs on the confusion (mine and everyone else's).



Sincerely,

Julie Ali

the machine was off

and here is the new day
where I ponder
on the discovers
of disarray and perturbation
what am I to do?
I never trained for risk management
or how to teach the long term care facility
how to do respiratory care
(this seems to be the work of upper management
that has failed its duties
towards safety of vulnerable patients)

and here is the new day
where I walk in the forest
and think about confusion and clarity
that gap that exists between stereotype
and reality
for I had believed my sister was the reason
for her own difficulties
her handicaps were so severe
that perhaps she was causing her own death?
but I find now that there are other reasons for her
rapid decline and what am I to do about these facts in negligence?


and here is the new day
where I attend to the world
the door opens to winter
and the door closes on summer
the aspens shrug their shoulders of gold
and they drop their drawers of leaves
the simple and the complicated merge in the stream
of noise that forms the flow down the street
the solid weight of silence sits on my head like a hat
and I do nothing
I watch the leaves fall
and I wonder how I was so gullible


and here is the new day
where I have been revealed to myself
I see that I believed everyone else
without verifying the situation of my handicapped sister
now I ask myself
if the entire world from AHS to the Good Samaritan
understood their liability in this situation
why was I so dense?
why didn't I understand what the data card downloads were all about?
the machine was off
and there is no way in hell that they can say that they are not responsible
the machine was off      and my sister has been slowly dying 




policing the long term care system

I have gone for a walk. It is damp outside and the leaves are sticky on the forehead of the trail. There are small speckles of rain on the fallen aspen leaves. The ones on the trees are still shiny foil but when they drop they become tawdry goods; their dotted surfaces acquire holes and frills that weren't there in the original dresses. When I got to the trail there wasn't much to see other than the gold of the aspens falling to the ground in  a wild giveaway that threatened my head many times as I went back and forth.
When I ruminate I have to move.

So I went back and forth on the piddly trail near my home. I may have to go back and walk some more. The body is having problems with the sitting in place and I have to move now or I will be a snag in place.

It is hard to think. It is even harder to extrapolate from what small amounts of data I have got. It may be that I am too old to be a mummy detective.

But I will try.
Today I am working on questions for the meeting with the Good Samaritan folks and AHS on Friday October 3, 2014.
This whole week is crammed with appointments and I am very sleepy because I go every night and wait by the handicapped sister to make sure that staff aren't killing her off.
In other words, I am documenting the staff put on the BiPap machine and the mask. I take pictures from this point on of the machine being on every night so I have a record of its function. I will now do BIPAP duty as well as Mask duty.
I am now a sort of security guard assigned to my handicapped sister.
But there you go.

In the forest, things are proceeding as they should.
Things are proceeding as they should in my investigation into my handicapped sister's care but there has been the unexpected realization that the poor victim in this case was not a victim due to her own lack of insight but due to the poor practices at a long term care facility that approach criminal in nature. I will have to take the long route now in my investigation which I had begun believing it was all my sister's fault. She is handicapped in all the ways possible but no--the reason she has been suffering so long is to a large extent due to failures to meet the standards of care at the Good Samaritan Extended care. I only have some documentation from 2014 but once I have the data from her medical files at the Good Samaritan I will be able to think through the process of the decline and fall of my sister. I will then go to AHS and request all her medical files from the system so as to correlate the hospitalizations with the poor care at the facility.

This sort of work requires a lot of walking and thinking.
Because I am also policing the extended care system this investigation will take me even longer than I ever expected because I am not a trained risk management worker and liability issues are a new thing for me.  Maybe I need to go see a lawyer?  I will wait. This is all such an amazing discovery--the total failures in the system that what can I say? I will walk and think.

In my innocence, I had never for one second believed I would have to be doing the policing of the long term care system.
But what am I to understand from the data card downloads?
I think I am to understand that --at least for the period of time that I have monitored staff as they put on the BIPAP mask (but not monitored the machine)--there was 17 days when they failed to put the machine on.

This short period of time between Wednesday September 24, 2014 to Sunday September 28, 2014 when I did both mask duty and machine duty--there was 100% compliance and 100% machine function. The BIPAP machine is working. What is not working in my opinion is the training of staff and oversight of the staff putting the machine on, checking that the program is running--you know--the sorts of things that you would expect nursing staff to be able to do. So why isn't it happening?
I have to go think about the questions I have to ask on Friday and this will be one of the questions I ask.

Then I get the medical files.

Monday, September 29, 2014

---Tuesday March 8, 2011--------When do you understand any of this?--September 29, 2014---You understand this 3 years later

It is curious to me how blind I have been. I am a long way from myself.

 I have found an entry from 2011 where I am with my handicapped sister and I am thinking how profoundly unhappy she is.
Here is the entry that came to me in a notebook I opened today from the past.

Tuesday March 8, 2011

Today (Reacting here)

The calligraphy of the day unfolds.
Snow slumps against the deck.
The sun stipples, stripes and stuccoes it.
Light fills the kitchen.
Words are read.
Older boy taken to appointment.
Groceries.
A visit to my sister.
Appointments.
The day written out in ornate text.
Usually it is simpler.
Rarely more than silence and children.
The type of life of a nun except I'm married.
The occasion of snow.
Land like a hidden ghost.
Pockmarks of noise.
So tell me--How you see all of this?

See this dream?  This is your life.
What is it all about?  Why even ask?
Dust floats in the air; settles on the table.
Mutter of noise.
A child grown up before you knew it.
Something like a tear in reality forms.
You go through it.
On the other side the same noise.
Silence finally.
The mind drops down---that wild animal that sleeps.
What is left is the heartbeat thoughts.
Regular sure cadence.
The physiological waveform of being here.
Reaching here happens only when I move to here in writing.
And where is here?
Some place in the mind where there is no tear.
________________________

Days pass through each other like body through skin,
Losses mount.
Things go wrong.
What are we at the moment of recapitulation?

When we ask ourselves what are we doing?
What are the answers that come up.
Sitting down.
Watching words.
Mind like a thumb in the mouth being sucked.
Simple.
Mind like a child's.
How to get from here to there?
How to understand where we are, how to be, where to go next?
Is it all random?
Puncture marks of consciousness in the mind.
Hiss. Snake coiling away back into the underground place.
Grass stagger pat.
We make ourselves miserable.
So many words.
If it all ends there does it matter if we sting here?

********************************

The tear in life is repaired continually here in a blunt faced language.

Suppose you sit here and not long for anything.
Suppose you just let words fall like snow.
Suppose you let a crust form and you write on that surface.
********************************
Nearby there is a small boy. "Tell him to stop sucking his thumb". A small boy turns in on his self.

***********************
My sister is grumpy.
I can't blame her.
But I won't let it bother me.
When do you understand any of this?

I can't say.
The world is a loud place and I am deaf.
At least I feel that way at times.

Debbie the physiotherapist is at lunch so I wait.
I don't see Annette.
My sister sits miserable next to me.
I do the picture of her in the book.
Her chin is double.
Her arms are massive.
Her face looks so unhappy.
How can I be angry?
I asked her if she would like to talk and she said no.
She says she talks to herself.
I understand that.

**********************************

Sunlight is sharp now.
Peels back snow like a flap of skin.
I am tired of being inside.
I want to go out.
The sky is one long blue place.
Trees carry air like branching bowls.
Sleepy.
Fir tree pointing out the direction of the wind.
Fir teeth gleaming.
Fir pearls of cones. Necklaces.
I've got to think of revision as accretion or pearl making.

**********************
How do you stop loving?
Is it like death?
Or is it like sorrow?
Some place we do not know?
How to stop it?
I suppose you could try.
But why bother.
Death will stop all loving.
Death will stop that long cry.

**********************

We don't really live in this world anyway.
We live in our minds--in that internal world.
We try to leave behind these hands that seldom understand wha tthey do.
How they touch.
Let them stand here.
Let them learn trust.

***********************

Privacy is an odd thing.
Solid and shadow is involved in it.
Tree and shade.
Who is the private one?
Who is more known?
The shadow is peel of the fruit.
Fir tree the fruit.
The underneath of things is private.
The root.

*******************************

Clumps of snow.
Shapes emerge.
Surface pattern is fungal.
******************

So you see, sometimes there is silence--words sit in the dark--tumble out what you wish.
It is all empty --untrue.

*********************
I'm coming home.

**************************************************


So that was a journal entry from Tuesday March 8, 2011 --a while after I had dumped my sister in the Good Samaritan extended care believing that she would be able to manage there. But I was lying to myself. I wanted to believe this so desperately that I left her with my ancient dad as the advocate. I sensed that there were problems but I could not muster up the energy to investigate.
And so what is left in the bag hissing, finally comes out and strikes you.
You have to face problems.
There were problems.
Of course I didn't know what the problems were.
I am --not a respiratory therapist.
I had no idea what the data card downloads actually meant.
I am learning as I do the data card downloads.

But the fact is that the respiratory therapists at the Good Samaritan knew what the data card downloads meant.
The folks at 5E3 at the University of Alberta knew what the data card downloads meant.
They knew what 55 days out of 60 days when the BIPAP machine was not on meant that there was a major adverse event in this matter.

The folks in administration at the Good Samaritan must also have known that the 55 days of 60 days without the BIPAP machine on meant major problems for my sister.
In my opinion, there was a good reason why there was no data card in the last machine my sister was using.
Why would any facility document problems?

Only I took from the moment of discovery on March 12, 2014 to the most recent data card download today --September 29, 2014--to realize what all these small pieces of information meant.
They meant that the people at the Good Samaritan have not being putting on the BIPAP machine for my sister.
That even when I was present, with the mask on her, the machine was off.

This means that there was negligence involved.
Today I got a data card download that was an experiment.
I had gone to the Good Samaritan from Wednesday September 24, 2014 to Sunday September 28, 2014.
I watched the staff put on the machine (more on these observations later).
I watched the handicapped sister for two hours.
I got the summary of the results.
The BIPAP machine was working when I did the supervision.
So this means that any day without any readings when I had noted her with her mask on---she wasn't getting any therapy. She was with a machine without any function.
Wow.

This is big.


In this post, I have gone back in time to show you the start of my confusion.
Now I am in the present.
I see the data card downloads.
I wonder at the sort of respiratory care that does not tell the patient families that the machine was not on ---for long periods of time because of the staff failures.
Did the Good Samaritan administration not understand what this data meant?

I had believed that the blank spaces meant that my sister did not have her mask on.
This is why I had stayed with her every night to put the mask on.
But it hadn't made any difference for 17 days in the most recent past where the machine had been off.
This isn't a machine malfunction.
This is a staff malfunction.

on guard for our family in long term care facilities

It is a cold day outside but I went out after dropping younger boy. If I go straight after I drop him at Strathcona Pool then I do not get diverted from laps. The walk was short but it is day 1. You have to begin with small steps every time you start  an exercise program. Because it was so fresh outside the leaves were being clipped off the aspens, the berries were desiccated and there was an appreciable pile of leaves to wade through in front of the neighbors's perfect homes. I washed the minor amounts of leaves in discreet ways with the cushions of my worn out runners. I have newer runners but these are so comfy that I can slop around in the trails with them. I hope to enlarge the distance that I walk soon. But it is just today. I found a red leaf on the pile of yellow leaves and it was a prize so I took it with me like an amulet of good luck.
I have placed it next to my book so that I can be cheered up by the crimson.
I have got the cup of coffee heating in the microwave, The day's work is set before me. I will work through the books I am to return to the library. I have a data card download to do. Then I will think about my handicapped sister's multitudes of posts that I have not yet written up. I have to organize my investigation.
I am not a police officer so I don't know what to do other than do the observations and make a case history.
I think of the staff at the Good Samaritan extended care at Millwoods.
Most of them are nice people.
These are ordinary people who are doing what they have always done. No one is checking their work. No one follows the patients. They write their notes in the nursing files. But who does comprehensive reviews of each patient? I would assume the care manager would be in charge of such reviews. But if there is a failure in the work of the care manager then patient families are the only back up plan in such cases. I have no confidence in AHS which seems to be the mop that wipes up the spills after the accidents.

In other words, if you are in a long term care facility and you are a vulnerable adult this means you are more at risk from the staff than from anything else.
The push to transfer care from registered nurses to LPNs comes with a cost.
This cost is competence and knowledge.
RNs for all their costs, actually will in the end cost the system less. With the failures in care my sister has endured with associated hospitalizations it would have been cheaper for the health care system to have spared her the injury and suffering by offering more RNs on the job.
In other words, there are competent staff below the RN designation but unless there are adequate training programs, oversight and disciplinary action taken for failures you will have what you have at the Good Samaritan extended care which has been in the case of my handicapped sister, a facility that has not met her needs and certainly not met the standards of care.
What do family do in this case?
The impetus of the medical system in all cases of adverse events and harm to the patients is always to move forward and work in the best interests of the patients.
This is fine.
But there is a problem with this sort of philosophy when we encounter repeated adverse events with no sort of problem solving in the system to address these recurrences.
I believe it is incumbent on families of patients with disabilities to do a system wide check. Why should we wait until there is a fatality review with the summary of the problems and lack of change that is associated with each fatality review in Alberta? There is no sort of reason for a fatality review when we are in possession of the ability to access patient files and see where the problems are in the system. Why watch your handicapped sister being killed off by the medical system by neglect of good practices when you can jolly well document system wide failures and get change ASAP?

This sort of problem solving will not be done by the AHS and the organizations that have been given the responsibility for the care of our long term patients because there is no such long term thinking or planning anywhere in the government and its associated bodies.
What we have is a government that is in disarray; in the AHS---we have an organization that has mutated as fast as it can to meet with the challenges of a poorly planned oil sands boom and that is concentrating on its own survival rather than the survival of the people who work for the organization or the patients it serves. The failures of the Good Samaritan Society are the failures of the AHS folks who have pushed patient care based funding on the long term care facilities resulting in dumbing down of staff, loss of staff and consequent adverse events in patients like my sister. The failures of the AHS folks are the failures of the upper administration at AHS who have not provided direction to the government of Alberta about the needs of the organizations that are responsible for long term care. The failures of upper administration at AHS are the failures of the government of Alberta because the two entities are now Siamese twins. The AHS upper echelon is the government of Alberta.

While all of these folks spin in their chairs in their offices, I sit in a room in my house and think about the investigation of the problems afflicting my handicapped sister. I never imagined that she would have the problems she would have. I never expected the variation in the quality of care that I have encountered. I have been surprised by the frank negligence of the facility managers and the refusal to understand their liability issues and their responsibilities towards their patients. All of this lack of professionalism is a surprise and now how do I deal with it? I am a stay at home mummy. I am as naive as a new born chick.
What do I do?
I look at the data.
I think about the FOIP request.
I will listen to the AHS person and the Good Samaritan folks talk on Friday October 3, 2014 at 3:00 pm.
 I will write down their chatter.
My job at that meeting is write down the answers they have not provided to me in a written format.
They will get the list of questions.
I will attend that meeting to write down the answers.
Then, after that meeting I will send my summary of their answers to them for verification before I publish it on the blog.
I want to be fair and accurate.
We -the family deserve answers.
So do all Albertans who have their families in such situations.
Are our beloveds safe?
At this point in time, I think they are only safe if there is a family member present at their sides every single day.
But this is just my sister's case.
Your family member may be able to tell you what the hell is happening to her.
My sister can't do this.
I am her advocate.
And as her advocate, I need all the information I can get.
It is important to have all the information before you make your decisions.
Decisions made slowly are always better than fast decisions -which is something the government of Alberta and its twin in the AHS needs to understand.
These are all human beings.
We aren't doing change with moose and deer here or caribou that are going extinct.
These are human beings we are changing with our system changes and this all takes more time than you would ever imagine.
Then I report the news of the decline and fall of my handicapped sister to other Albertans so that when their families enter the long term care system in Alberta --they too--will be on guard for them.
These are the days of confusion and mystery.
Only the pause and the thinking will clear all the issues up.


and you might as well prepare daily

if you wish for an easy life
well good luck with that
the door is always closed
but you can use your hammer of a will
to push through that barrier and enter into information

if you wish for an easy life
this might be nice
but it won't make you resilient
which allows you to bounce
when hitting an impenetrable surface

if you wish for an easy life
this won't make you muscular
and when you are given stones to carry
you will fail    this is to say that you are given
the full quota of suffering eventually     and you might as well prepare daily  


if you wish for an easy life
this will ensure that you never learn
what comes with each calamity
that inside you    there is a mind that is embryonic 
that can be trained to decipher the code of every program you encounter

if you wish  for an easy life
you might as well roll yourself into the carpet of death
and bury yourself    because this is the only way you will have this matter
the story is always full of ups and downs
only you can make the way through 


Sunday, September 28, 2014

spinning

The sad fritters of the begonias on the deck make me feel guilty that I did not bring them in but I am now crowded with plants that are buzzing with bugs and I haven't got space for the rest of the stragglers. I will think about the other geraniums that strap themselves in their pots and hope for the plummet to the end of the flight of summer to be rescue in nature. I will take in the red geranium in the hanging basket in the front but I do not want to drag the rest in; there maybe spiders crawling over the fuchsia that has hung on to the end of September without throwing away her leaves. Instead she has polished her nails of seed pods and dangles them invitingly over the hanging basket where she is glossy green.

I wish I knew how to fit all of this work in. The FOIP request on 7 year old Jack is going on forever. I have filed a complaint about the busy bodies of the government spying on citizens as we do our democratic business in crowds. I am not yet in the midst of the yapping about the single point of contact business having not even got the second EPS board meeting up and there are millions of posts on the handicapped sister to write up. I am going soon to see her. The data card download is tomorrow as well and this week is full of appointments.

I feel like a small top spinning.
There has been no real time to go for a walk in the heady masses of leaves about the path in the forest near my home and this has been a disappointment. Surrounded by leaves and throwing the detritus up with my boots, is a pretty lovely way to spend the evening and with the turmoil and stuffing of cake that I did today for older boy's simple birthday party there was no sort of walk.

I feel like a stuffed turkey right now. The cake is all gone.
I ate two pieces.
At least there might be a chance of going to walk tomorrow.
The begonias are limp on the deck.
I have to plant the perennial that my sister got me that is sitting in the basket on the deck like a foundling.
There may be dead tomato plants in the bucket that I haven't put on the compost heap.
The casualties mount.
Soon it will be winter.
There will be a clean sheet of snow to cover this unholy garden bed.
I will relax.
The garden will look as if I have taken some efforts with it.
The garden will forgive me my sins of writing.
The garden will be obliterated.

The last white geraniums wave their flags and surrender.

what is hidden and mysterious

pause and think
these are not problems
but opportunities
where there is a dead end
this is a chance to rummage

pause and think
the science project is experimental
in nature 
and demands that you review the results
so that you decide the next proofs that are required

pause and think
at the end      we are all equivalent
the bones and the flesh
become the dust that flies in the air
you must not think of the differences that exist now 

pause and think
for fear and pain are simple words
you must see them as walls
that you push through      so that you arrive
at the other side of discovery

pause and think
what is hidden and mysterious
becomes clear in a minute when the evidence
is placed under the microscope
the malignancy and pathogen is evident under that lens 

pause and think
the oddities mount
the mountain of data is to be perused
you sit at the edge of the knowledge
you simply wait until it is clear to you   and then you report on the outcomes   



on the doorstep of Mars

on the doorstep of Mars
where the eagles chased reverse
the stolen hours caught in their claws
and the higher mouths of clouds spewed verse

on the pillars of the moon
where the needles of the stars
sewed the cloth of the night
into frightful lines and bars

on the hollow tube of sound
of the stem of the grasses
I pondered what the meaning was
of the dance's singular steps and passes

on the rope of milky scum
placed on the leaves at autumn's end
the slipshod slide of sound
and the corner where it bends


on the pasture of the poem
where the cows moo and the antlers furnish
the silver limpet oddity of the moose
I put down the work and I vanish




Dear Mr. Don Scott, I don't know if you are still the Associate Minister of Accountability, Transparency and Transformation. It's so confusing now with the Prentice guy. Are we now without transparency? Maybe it simply doesn't matter. You never did much while you were in this portfolio anyway. I mean while you were the associate minister of this junk, we never got any information on the poor kids who died in care--did we? If you are the transparency guy still--please help me get the information on 7 year old Jack.



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Dear Mr. Don Scott,

  I don't know if you are still the Associate Minister of Accountability, Transparency and Transformation.
It's so confusing now with the Prentice guy.
Are we now without transparency?

Maybe it simply doesn't matter.
You never did much while you were in this portfolio anyway.
I mean while you were the associate minister of this junk, we never got any information on the poor kids who died in care--did we?

If you are the transparency guy still---please help me get the information on 7 year old Jack.

I have been working on 7 year old Jack for example since the moment the investigative review was penned by the Del Graff guy.
He did not give us the police report or the autopsy results.
Why didn't he do this?
I was curious.
So I went and asked the Edmonton Police Services for this report.

Since the moment I have been yapping with the EPS folks I have not got any information whatsoever.
They are pretty obdurate in maintaining secrecy so that the provincial government and municipal governments look good to the public when in reality they are all failures in this case. Why for example doesn't the city of Edmonton post life guards near the entrance to the pools and check all kids under a certain age for life jackets? Why do they let the dumb dolts in charge of these kids take the responsibility for them? A simple requirement to have all kids under a certain age wearing life jackets would prevent this sort of tragedy. But no, they simply wait for this sort of mess to happen. What about the provincial government? Why did they entrust this child with an agency without any brains? Why did the agency let the child into the care of a person who has the attention span of a gnat? Why did the person leave a child without a life jacket in the water and go walk off with another child without thinking of the requirement to take the other child with her? Is the entire province full of nitwits?
Why did the provincial government not compensate the parents of the child?
Why did they take the child away from the parents where he would have been safer even if he ate candy until his teeth rotted?

All these questions are not answered.
So I asked for the police report.
I entered into the circular maze of government bureaucracy that appears to be designed to discourage citizens from getting any information about any failure in governance.
I was surprised to find that there were privacy concerns associated with the police report for 7 year old Jack.
The police won't give me the goods even though we pay for their salaries from our property tax bills which by the way are astronomical thanks to the Mandel guy's legacy projects for his buddies.

I wanted that report; it bothered me that I could not get it from the EPS-- and so I had to go to the folks in the information business.
So I took the refusal from the Edmonton Police Services-- to release this data (which by the way took them the full month to make this negative decision) and I went to the Office of the Information and Privacy Commissioner of Alberta.
This is a very long and tedious process I might tell you.
I don't think many stay at home mummies do this sort of endless searching for answers but I am the curious sort and I want these answers.
I mean I see no reason for information on this dead child to be kept top secret when it has been blabbed about by nearly everyone--the city of Edmonton, the Del Graff guy, the folks from the provincial government who were dumb enough to trust the kid with a care taking agency (if you can call it that after it kills off the kid) that hasn't got the brains to ensure that they have intelligent caretakers with the brains of more than a gnat so that they would not leave the child alone in a pool without a life jacket when he can't swim.

If everyone and their dog has yapped about this kid, why would the EPS folks think the details of his drowning is top secret? Why would they keep the video of the death a secret?
Do we live in China already?
Who is in charge of this province?
It isn't the Redford and it isn't the Prentice guy.
We run this province and we want the information on the dead kids.
But based on my endless wait for information I feel that this province is run by tin plate dictators at every level of government.
We pay for every one of these tin plate dictators and they treat us like junk.

Now --I don't know who is in charge of transparency or if transparency under the Prentice guy is out of the window of the house of corruption but I want this police report.

So far the folks at the Office of the Information and Privacy Commissioner have told me nothing other than there is a delay.
They call this "Extension of Timelines" which means to this mummy-- that the EPS can drag this business out forever.

Why do we have to go through this sort of song and dance to get information in Alberta?
Why are you all so determined to appear competent when we know this case is a mess (like nearly everything else in Alberta)--- and that poor 7 year old Jack would still be here if there was any sort of competence among the Tories?

We are ruled by thieves and nitwits.

It is a sham of governance when we have a child dead and we can't even get a police report on the child.
I am requesting the Prentice guy start putting the police reports and the autopsy results in the reviews of dead kids by the Del Graff guy.
You are all magical in your abilities to alter legislation for your own benefit.
Now do the same thing for the dead kids.
Alter legislation so that there is a requirement for all police reports and autopsy reports to be put out for review by the public as well as require that they are reported by the Office of the Child and Youth Advocate.
Everything should be made clear to us.
Especially the flagrant errors in governance that lead to the deaths of children.

Sincerely,
Julie Ali



http://readingchildrensbooks.blogspot.ca/2014/09/the-story-is-that-edmonton-police.html


Sunday, September 28, 2014

the story is / that the Edmonton Police Services / has good reason / for keeping the incompetence under wraps

the story is / that the Edmonton Police Services / has good reason / for keeping the incompetence under wraps

and year after year
lay down the stones
over the graves of the children
wait to tussle with Edmonton Police Services
to get the report of 7 year old Jack
how long will it take?
will it take until the next provincial election?
or will the truth be kept secret?
the story is
that there are privacy concerns
about the police report

but
what privacy concerns can there be?
the child is dead
the parents are missing in action
the name of the care agency can be blacked out
the story is given to us
that we are forbidden from the story
of how the government of Alberta
failed its duty
but since I don't give a darn
about their embarrassment
at failing at their duties
I want to know how it happened
every detail of the death
of 7 year old Jack
should be made public

the story is 
that the Edmonton Police Services
has good reason
for keeping the incompetence under wraps
that
it is in the best interests
of everyone
to keep the story hidden from us
but
if there is no court case
and no criminal charges being contemplated
then in my mind
there is no reason to keep the story
out of the court of public opinion
the information is ours
we pay for it
release it to us

http://media.treehugger.com/assets/images/2011/10/poppies.jpg

you belong to that scattered tribe

and put down a word
and then the put down another word
in this way there is a line

you take that line
and you twirl it like a rope
that you use to lasso meaning



you snap that rope
against the flanks of the horse of language
and gallop across the prairie seeking the poem

but of course
the poem as the prey
is prone to vanish

instead of a poem
you come across dandelions
roaring in the garden of knowledge

this is to say
the imagination is very fickle
and wants to be left to do what it wants to do

you are here
but where is the lissome language?
surely you cannot die before you have that poem?


the stable of the horse
that is language beckons
and the horse whinnies

now what are you to do?
this is very fragmentary
you must get out of the tomb of dead language

and begin again     threshing the fields
for the poem that has vanished like a fugitive from justice
you must not think this is all impossible

thousands of poets exist
in their horrid hovels
doing what you are doing

which is developing the stamina
to sing
the cursed triplets of this poem

you belong to that scattered tribe 
they collapse their tents of song and gypsy forth
and they scantily write in the wee hours of the night

they sit in coffee shops
and interrogate the line as a criminal
but that felon refuses to yield to them

they soldier on in the mud and snow of time
the poem is a crow that sits on the streetlight
under which they stagger bewildered looking for the muse

this is to say
we are all working on impossible projects
the only sure thing about all of this

is that failure is constant
and the poem is skittish
redemption is uncertain

only the work is constant
decades later hunched over the horse
you will be galloping in the dark

the poem will still be fleeing
and there will trees lifting up their skirts
to run after the caravan of poets who are seeking truth

the soldiers come
the guns burst out their words
the poets fall    and only the poem wins






older boy's birthday party

Older boy's birthday party went well. We have given him a shirt we got from Totem Outfitters plus money. The old folks (my parents) gave him money. We had pizza. My mum (surprisingly) came. My handicapped sister didn't come since I am afraid to take her home just yet. The fact is that she is surprisingly friable. I will take her some pizza later. My younger sister came.
We have celebrated. Older boy is now nineteen.
It is hard to figure it out.
One moment there is fat baby in your arms.
He is a toddler the next minute.
Then he is running down the street to school.
After he graduates from high school he works at the minimum hour jobs while finishing off physics 30 and math 31 at Centre High
Finally he is in NAIT.
The story is here now.
I look back and see the baby stuffing watermelon down his throat, the boy running down the John Janzen Nature center trail to fall into the pond with his fishing net. There are so many scenes of the boy in so many formats. It takes a childhood to make a young adult and I have overstimulated his head. Hopefully it shows. The boy sits in front of his computer screen and looks at the work.

I am not sure of anything anymore.
I sit in the harbor of my family.
The garden peels off its mask of fall.
The Canada Day geranium is safe inside the house along with the vines.
I have been given the caretaking of two pots of succulants.
The house fills with outside plants.
There maybe time to save them all.
I don't know.
The book I am reading takes precedence.
Another year goes.

--“That old building, the old headquarters building was getting very tired and was going to need significant costly upgrades over time.”----------------------Another new appointee to Premier Jim Prentice’s cabinet supported a CBE plan seven years ago to build a new administrative headquarters despite a mounting $547 million backlog of repairs at student facilities.---------------------Leaked documents show Dirks made the motion to proceed despite the fact the construction price for the tower and adjoining office had spiked another 45 per cent in less than a year to $161 million. A secret report showed the CBE would be on the hook to pay $285 million in rent over the two-decade term of the lease, but board administrators had no clear plan for how to cover the cost.-------While the Calgary Board of Education’s maintenance backlog mounted above $500 million in 2008, leaked documents show Gordon Dirks made the motion to approve a two-decade lease for a new central office, the escalating cost of which would need to be covered by redirecting money then being earmarked to maintain schools.--------The Calgary Board of Education quietly approved money for pay raises for its top bureaucrats and other exempt staff this week, at the same private meeting where it turned down a teacher labour deal citing concerns over hidden costs. The school board is refusing to reveal the maximum amount allocated for 2013 pay raises for superintendents (who make between $150,000 and $260,000 a year), directors, managers, supervisors and other exempt staff. But the Herald has learned it’s more than $1 million.---------

the people rise up from their sleep
they look around at the commerce and futility
they watch the players on the stage of politics
they understand that a pageant is being enacted to confuse
they sip their coffee and they wait for the show to end
surely they ask themselves
the players have been decimated?
surely we are left only with the truth tellers of the land?
but no it ain't so
the Prentice repeats the same stories of the Redford
we will have good times in Alberta
even though the tailings ponds have waited for redemption
for forty years and more
no problem
we will leave a lake district of toxic endings
for our children
the emissions are to be talked about
until cancer spikes appear about the Peace River families
there is a fracked aquifer in Cold Lake
but who cares?
we have oil
and the contaminated water won't matter
(we will drink bottled water)
then when the oil goes
water will be sold
so that the resources are trafficked to the end
by the players on the stage of errors


but let me not be too pessimistic
Prentice has given the Calgary Board of Education money
for portables and maybe schools will soon appear
or will the administration of the CBE simply live in style
in their mortgaged building while the children wait?
who is to say that the players don't take care of themselves?
it is the same story wherever I look
we have an education minister who understands entitlement
for while the students and teachers ponder their knees
in the portables he has ensured that the bigwigs
have WEM residences that is mortgaged for eternity
who is to say he isn't a great example of fiscal responsibility?
we only have to look at the reflection of this great man
in the Mandel to see the Katz Kheerleader
in his expenditures
they copy the rule book of the Redford
which is to take care of the 1%
while the 99% of us don't get anything
this is to say that the big banker Prentice
continues the history of entitlement
that is the legacy of Lougheed
and the Klein error
we are the serfs
and they?
they are the players on the stage 
of corruption and greed
the entitlement play continues with Team Prentice 

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New cabinet minister supported CBE plan for $111M headquarters

BY MATT MCCLURE, CALGARY HERALD SEPTEMBER 20, 2014
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New cabinet minister supported CBE plan for $111M headquarters

The Calgary Board of Education headquarters building in Calgary.

Photograph by: Stuart Gradon , Calgary Herald

Another new appointee to Premier Jim Prentice’s cabinet supported a CBE plan seven years ago to build a new administrative headquarters despite a mounting $547 million backlog of repairs at student facilities.
Minutes from a 2007 meeting of the Calgary Board of Education show Kyle Fawcett, who was then a trustee with the city’s public school board, voted to proceed with the then $111-million project even though the price tag had tripled from $34 million in the three years since he had been elected.
Meeting records show Fawcett, the board’s audit committee chair, was also at the table six months earlier when trustees gave the go ahead to a complex land sale and building lease with a private developer for the office tower because the CBE had decided it didn’t have the money to finance construction itself.
A member of the “Fiscal Four” group of Tory MLAs who championed tighter spending after he left the CBE and won a seat in the 2008 provincial election, Fawcett declined to be interviewed about the headquarters deal.
“I did not vote on the final project,” Fawcett said in an emailed statement.
“And since I was no longer a trustee when that agreement was approved, it would not be fair nor appropriate for me to provide further comment.”
Freshly-appointed education minister Gordon Dirks, who was a trustee when the final approval was granted in February 2008, has also declined to speak with reporters about the deal.
Leaked documents show Dirks made the motion to proceed despite the fact the construction price for the tower and adjoining office had spiked another 45 per cent in less than a year to $161 million.
A secret report showed the CBE would be on the hook to pay $285 million in rent over the two-decade term of the lease, but board administrators had no clear plan for how to cover the cost.
A “potential” source of cash to cover rent that would increase two per cent annually in each of the 20 years included money then being used to maintain and operate schools, which bureaucrats suggested they could “redirect.”
This year, tent and operating costs for the 10-storey tower amount to more than $12.5 million. That’s more than one per cent of the CBE’s operating budget.
Since CBE bureaucrats moved into their new digs three years ago, the board has had to increase class sizes and hike fees to parents as it struggled to balance its budget.
Current trustee Lynn Ferguson was also at the table in 2008 and voted to proceed with the headquarters despite the fact initial construction costs had mounted to $161 million and administrators were uncertain how they would find the funds to pay the rent.
But when Ferguson was with the Calgary Association of Parent and School Councils five years earlier, she questioned whether a replacement central office was a wise investment even though the price tag was only a fifth of the final amount.
“I think when the average parent hears they going ahead and spending money on a new building, they’ll say, ‘What about our schools?’ Ferguson told a Herald reporter when the initial plans were made public in 2003.
“I always find it worrying when public boards get into the business of administration.”
Ferguson did not reply to emailed questions this week about her apparent change of heart regarding the single largest capital project in the CBE’s 129-year history.
mmcclure@calgaryherald.com

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Education minister defends past push for new CBE headquarters amid education funding crunch

BY MATT MCCLURE, CALGARY HERALD SEPTEMBER 22, 2014

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Education minister defends past push for new CBE headquarters amid education funding crunch

Education Minister Gordon Dirks championed a new $285-million headquarters for the Calgary Board of Education six years ago, while complaining that the province wasn’t providing enough money to keep classrooms adequately repaired.

Photograph by: Stuart Gradon , Calgary Herald

Alberta’s new education minister is defending his push while serving as a city school board trustee six years ago for a $285-million headquarters to house administrators, even as he complained to provincial officials that there wasn’t enough money to keep classrooms adequately repaired.

While the Calgary Board of Education’s maintenance backlog mounted above $500 million in 2008, leaked documents show Gordon Dirks made the motion to approve a two-decade lease for a new central office, the escalating cost of which would need to be covered by redirecting money then being earmarked to maintain schools.

A 2005 engineering report for the province had found the existing Macleod Trail headquarters needed the equivalent in today’s dollars of $670,000 in upgrades, but were in sound condition and would last another six decades.

But Dirks told reporters Monday that the CBE’s final decision to build a new central office at a different location was imperative.

“There’s just no question about it,” he said.

“That old building, the old headquarters building was getting very tired and was going to need significant costly upgrades over time.”

Indeed, a 2003 report for the CBE had pegged the cost of needed renovations to the existing head office and other administrative buildings at $11.9 million in today’s dollars.

Operating costs for all the facilities were estimated at another $1.7 million annually after adjusting for inflation.

By comparison, the rent and operating costs the CBE will pay this year for the leased 10-storey tower is more than $12.5 million and will increase by two per cent annually.

Since officials moved in and the CBE began paying rent three years ago, the board has had to increase class sizes and hike fees to parents in order to balance its budget.

Both watchdog groups and opposition critics have questioned Dirks’ priorities in championing approval for the deal when the board was strapped for funds to fix schools, and complaining the province was not building enough facilities to accommodate the CBE’s rising enrolment.

As board chair in 2006 while plans for the headquarters were moving ahead, Dirks criticized the province for not funding school boards adequately for facility maintenance and demanded “tens of millions of dollars” to address the growing backlog.

“We’re on the front lines in our districts,” he said.

“We see the peeling paint and leaking roofs.”

In his second week on the job as education minister, Dirks was at a media conference in Calgary on Monday to announce four “mini schools” in underserved suburbs where the Conservative government has been unable to find funds to build regular facilities.

Dirks said CBE trustees did wrestle in 2008 with whether to proceed with the new headquarters given the board’s other priorities, and he is unsure if he would make the same decision today.

“It was simply a strategic asset management decision . . . that was based on the facts and the circumstances at the time,” he said.

“End of story.”

Without a seat in the legislature, Dirks said he will announce in a “couple of days” whether he will run in a fall byelection for the Calgary Elbow seat vacated by former premier Alison Redford.

mmcclure@calgaryherald.com
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CBE approves money for pay raises for senior staff


BY RICHARD CUTHBERTSON, CALGARY HERALD MARCH 22, 2013

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CBE approves money for pay raises for senior staff

The Calgary Board of Education’s pay raises for top bureaucrats comes as a series of public-sector organizations are avoiding salary hikes for senior staff and are instead instituting wage freezes.
Photograph by: Stuart Gradon , Calgary Herald
The Calgary Board of Education quietly approved money for pay raises for its top bureaucrats and other exempt staff this week, at the same private meeting where it turned down a teacher labour deal citing concerns over hidden costs.

The school board is refusing to reveal the maximum amount allocated for 2013 pay raises for superintendents (who make between $150,000 and $260,000 a year), directors, managers, supervisors and other exempt staff. But the Herald has learned it’s more than $1 million.


The CBE says salary increases are based on employee performance, along with occasional top-ups if compensation falls below Calgary pay bands for a job with similar responsibilities.

But the CBE’s pay raise allocation comes as a series of public-sector organizations are avoiding salary hikes for senior staff and are instead instituting wage freezes, some for as long as three years.

At the same time, the school board is grappling with a provincial budget it says was worse than expected, one that has sparked concerns class sizes will rise and teacher jobs may be cut.

The CBE defends its pay raise allocation as a matter of staying competitive in the Calgary labour market.

“What we would talk about are employees who have specialized skill sets, which are transferable anywhere in Calgary,” said Lynn Ferguson, the school board’s vice-chairwoman.

“What we’re competing (for) in the large Calgary market is for people with talent. Those are people like engineers, IT persons, HR specialists.”

CBE spokesman Richard Peter said the approved allocation is a maximum limit for raises, and it’s estimated that one-quarter of it will not be used.

The money was originally part of the 2012-2013 budget, according to the school board, but needed to be approved again by trustees.

Two trustees, Carol Bazinet and Sheila Taylor, voted against the pay raise allocation Tuesday night.

Ferguson argues that because exempt staff are a small group that don’t have the protection of a union, the CBE must be fair to them.

There are 220 exempt employees at the CBE. They include management right up to superintendents, but also some lower level administrators that work in sensitive positions and are not part of a union.

Peter said he can’t make public the pay allocation because that could reveal a “negotiating position related to other collective agreements.”

The tentative agreement with the province’s teachers, reached last week, envisions three straight years of zero per cent increases to the salary grid, followed by two per cent in the fourth year and a one per cent lump sum.

But one spending watchdog said it’s “unacceptable” for a public body to refuse to detail pay increases for senior staff.

Canadian Taxpayers Federation vice-president Scott Hennig said concerns that pay hikes for a small number of exempt staff will reveal the CBE’s bargaining position with teachers are overblown.

“Taxpayers and parents and the media have every right to know how much they’re planning on handing to their senior staff,” he said.

“How else can parents, taxpayers, assess whether or not they’re getting value for their money?”

Some unionized workers at the school board, such as school caretakers and education assistants, will be receiving a 2.5 per cent wage hike in September under previously approved collective agreements.

Teachers, who make up the vast majority of employees at the CBE, have been without a contract since the end of August.

The head of the local public teacher union said he wants to know why CBE exempt staff are getting an increase when teachers are set to “bite the bullet and take zero.”

“It’s a little disappointing that this is something that would occur in a closed-door meeting from a group that supposedly purports transparency,” Frank Bruseker said.

“When you’re making these kinds of decisions behind closed doors, that’s always an issue.”

The school board says the maximum allocation for “total possible increase in performance” is a method that’s been used before.

In prior years, the total allocation has not been used up, and it’s expected that will be the same this year.

According to 2011 salary grid ranges, superintendents are paid between $151,500 and $260,000 a year; directors between $116,000 and $180,000, and managers between $100,000 and $137,000.

At the bottom end, the starting salary for an exempt administrative worker was $46,270.

Pay raises counter what other public sector institutions are doing. On Wednesday, University of Calgary president Elizabeth Cannon announced executive wages are being frozen, saving the institution $500,000.

Last month, provincial Finance Minister Doug Horner said salaries for management in government would be frozen for three years, saving taxpayers an estimated $54 million. And the latest provincial budget indicated school boards should chop spending on system administration by 10 per cent.

rcuthbertson@calgaryherald.com


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While the Calgary Board of Education’s maintenance backlog mounted above $500 million in 2008, leaked documents show Gordon Dirks made the motion to approve a two-decade lease for a new central office, the escalating cost of which would need to be covered by redirecting money then being earmarked to maintain schools.


A 2005 engineering report for the province had found the existing Macleod Trail headquarters needed the equivalent in today’s dollars of $670,000 in upgrades, but were in sound condition and would last another six decades.


“That old building, the old headquarters building was getting very tired and was going to need significant costly upgrades over time.”



Dirks said CBE trustees did wrestle in 2008 with whether to proceed with the new headquarters given the board’s other priorities, and he is unsure if he would make the same decision today.


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I read through the newspaper articles that present us with the muddled thinking of the future Minister of Education--Mr. Gordon Dirks and I am not impressed.

1) There is an engineering report in 2005 that says that the old Macleod Trail headquarters of CBE would do fine for "six decades" -that's sixty years folks.
2) But the entitled must have their toys.
There is an infrastructure deficit all over the province but the dumb man decides to go with the new building knowing full well that this will take money out of the maintenance of schools for kids in Calgary. What the heck? What do the parents think about this sort of junk? I would be steaming if I were a parent in Calgary.
I do note however that the headquarters of the EPS folks is pretty darn nice and they do live in style so maybe this sort of entitlement thinking is pervasive all over Alberta.
3) The guy says he wrestled with the decision.
But he went ahead.
But faced now with irate parents he wouldn't do the same dumb decision again.
Well at least he learned that entitlement isn't looked upon very favorably by taxpayers.
But it was an expensive lesson wasn't it?
And what about those major increases in pay to the top echelon?
Got to justify it on the lack of talent and the need to overpay them for less than stellar performances right?

As for the overworked teachers? They are at the bottom of the entitlement ladder.
Wait until they get to be superintendent of schools.