have you made a war out of your heart?

Saturday, August 11, 2012

have you made a war out of your heart?


have you learned your lessons as well as you could have?
have you poured yourself out entirely and made not a drop
of your soul an acid throw? have you given your mask away
a dozen times and shown yourself naked to the beloved? and if not
why not? the world aches for this sort of courage and you have failed
if you have not done any of these works

have you grown a garden of words and laid the root cellar full of your harvest?
have you gone out into the world and faced each lie with your sword and cut down
as much of that thicket down? have you made a war out of your heart? have you taken
down all those who would harm the ones who are powerless? have you been shield and cry?
have you done the good work? and if not why not? why have you not spoken up and given your blood
for the cause which is the cause of all of mankind? why have you not laid your life on the line?

the line of poetry the line of language the line of acts of courage?
why have you stayed silent while the homeless walked by your home?
why have you not spoken for the hungry? why have you kept quiet when we have been lied to?
why have you not taken out your soul from its burial ground and given it up in life to do the work
of love? I ask you this not to make you ashamed or restless I ask you this because I am curious
how can you let your children live and yet keep silent when their children die?

how can you do this?

Sunday, April 20, 2014

inside the house I sit incarcerated with the income taxes

in a nest of water
the grasses deliver their news
the storms of the winter are put in the sheds of the past
and we look around at the land    where the waters are

on the field the children run to the goal of freedom
inside the house I sit incarcerated with the income taxes
paper fills the house like a rainstorm of bills and molasses
I wish I was outside without the chains of the taxes but

this weekend is last rehearsals of what has to be paid out
to the government that is useless   I look at the amount of money
I send to them  and I am desolate
what a waste of cash  I think to myself

why do we pay for the failures we have hired?
why do we pay for their fun and games?
why is it that each of us
must push a wheel of work up the hill while they enjoy?

will we never have the government we deserve?
will we pay taxes until we keel over and become dirt?
will we have the money flying out the door
in an endless stream of dollar bills?

why do we have such poor governance for our labor?
look at the government we have hired at all levels
and look at the income taxes we pay
surely we can do better than this?


on the land the grasses overcome the cattails
and the bloated willows die down to blackened surfaces
  in the end we will get what we require
the people we will hire in the next elections will represent us

government will follow our will
and I do not make a simple statement
I say this will happen   for we pay for everything
and yet    we are not considered the bosses of them  but their slaves

of the water slipping out of the mouth of the earth

let me say a few words
to make the vanished seem here again 
and the dust weave a new garden of shoots and roots

let me say a few words
of the dust     that swerves to avoid the
car of the sunlight     and how that car drives away fast

to the far countries
where the songs are made
let me say a few words

to reassure myself that at least  the world is fine
let me say that the bricks of the snow that were walls
have finally been dismantled    and the garden stands up

and sleepily moves to erect the vanished buildings of life 
the garden takes off the shroud      and starts to live again
let me say a few words

of the water slipping out of the mouth of the earth 
let me say that the watery tongue of the soil licks at the sky
let me say a few words of the sun     that rests on an elbow of light

on the pale unresisting grasses
that have made a bed for her     so that she might rest after the labor of birth
let me say that the stones of the light are descending on the windshield

of the mind   that the light is a fleece
that was worn by the sun as she ran the gauntlet of darkness
and now that fleece has fallen all to pieces     let me say that the darkness

has been overcome  let me say that  the pieces of sorrow
I held in my hands as broken china
have been glued together temporarily  in this poem 


on the field the hill yawns awake
the marsh strips off her winter clothing
so that blackbirds may begin birthing rituals again

far away  the nests of the magpies engorge on the poplars
and the renovations are underway     for now 
we can say finally it is spring and winter's  broken cups and saucers are put away 


Saturday, April 19, 2014

to populate the dead countries

Something is wringing the rag of sunlight
                                                                   inexorably out and hanging
from "Bedtime Story" by Charles Wright in "Scar Tissue"


and if you look hard
the invisible hands
are taking up the dust 
of those who have vanished
and posting the stars
in the hallways of darkness
as the markers of their passing

the same hands
pick up the stones
we leave behind
as memories
and throws them into the future
where we encounter them as mines that us blow up
the invisible hands pick up the pieces then     and construct reality again

this is to say 
that we make the stories
to hold the events of the present  together
we use our imaginations and minds
to populate the dead countries   and we say to ourselves
something is out there at night     something that we can conceive of
so that we are not alone 

let us begin with these stories
and let us not distinguish reality from fantasy
for the real is just a leap from what we imagine
and what we imagine can become what we desire
something is outside rattling the handle of the door
and he wishes to come in to where I work the poem
something has tied the bow of the moon to the neck of the night

something has made a leap over the willows to stand
as a shadow of the poplar     something has ripped up the page of night
and made a confetti of stars   something has walked out of the soul's cell
and made a decision    something has decided to come inside me
and say a few words to keep me company
something has put down the words on the palms
and I have eaten them  

Friday, April 18, 2014

disqus_npCodLTLaH • 16 days ago When he was a lawyer for the crown corporation I worked for back in the 90's he was all about ethics and accountability...become an elected official and he lost what is most needed in a politician--------JR Follow • 16 days ago This BS will never end until the voters end it.-------------Dwayne • 15 days ago Many scandals have happened with the Alberta PC's, from Don Getty on down. Albertans were bribed with their own money , more than once, so they had to ignore them. -$600 million Nova Tel fiasco. -Multi- Corp. -$500 million Swan Hills scandal. -$180 million Miller West Pulp scandal. -$480 West Edmonton Mall scandal. -$125 million failed ambulance transfer plan. -$100 million AISH fiasco, complete with laughing and mocking the handicapped on camera. -$400 million mad cow bailout disaster -$3 million wasted on useless senators, when schools could not afford meals for hungry children. -$16 BILLION (and climbing) electricity deregulation mess. -rip off royalty rates for our natural resources. -crumbling infrastructure, such as roads, which have lead to many deaths. -numerous deaths of children in foster care. -the St. Joseph's Hospital fiasco in Vegreville. - privitization of everything in sight. - complaining about a democratic deficit in Ottawa, yet supporting a virtual one party state right here in Alberta. -supporting corrupt dictators like Pinnochet. --using the Heritage Savings Trust Fund to help pay down Alberta's debt. -having a corrupt influence on other premiers, such as Mike Harris in Ontario. We know the disasterous consequences of that. -bribing gullable people with their own money before an election or after a crisis. So people in Alberta love to condemn scandal and waste when it happens elsewhere in Canada, even at the federal level, but love to ignore it when it happens here. Why?-----------------------Hammertime_in_AB • 16 days ago Hancock gives the all clear? Well then it's settled I guess, NOT. What an embarrassing ongoing farce these PC's are. Polish up your resumes kids, you are getting the boot.-----------------Gary Moore • 16 days ago How could you hear any of Hancock's comments with his head in the sand? 9 •Share › Avatar Alex Smith Gary Moore • 16 days ago I thought it was some place else. :-) 10 •Share › -----------------------Tar1 • 16 days ago Admit it Dave, there is nothing courageous about the Alberta PC Party or its members. If any of them were remotely courageous they would at the very least cross the floor and sit independent. If the PC party was truly there for the good of Alberta they would all resign.-----------------------Ridonculous • 16 days ago It's quite clearly time for Hancock to hit the highway, too. To say the things quoted in this article certainly shows just how out of touch and delusional he his. Deny, deny, deny. Don't face up to the problems which are obvious to just about everyone, it seems, but the temporary puppet. THIS is why the Tories need to go because you have to know that the majority of them feel exactly the same way. 10 •Share › ---------------kidrock • 16 days ago Hancock is delusional if he thinks he could make more in the real world. In the real world, most people would be facing criminal charges if they defrauded their employer of hundreds of thousands of dollars. Alice Palace would result in jail time for real Albertans. Once again, the PC braintrust shows just how out of touch they are.------------flamesrock • 16 days ago Wow, and we thought Redford was bad. Hancock is a real piece of work. Arrogance and ignorance...classic PC characteristics. "....you can do a lot better working in the private sector if that's what you're after." Ummm none of them can make it in the private sector, that's why they are in the public sector.---------------------Alex Smith • 16 days ago “And they think there’s some corruption. Give me a break. They don’t know what corruption looks like.” The opposition and the rest of us know what corruption looks like, and if Hancock looks in the mirror he will see what it looks like to.--------

The comments to Mr. Hancock's denial of entitlement and corruption of the provincial Tories are pretty accurate. Let us look at some of them. It is amazing what you find out about our political hires from these comments:
http://www.calgarysun.com/2014/04/02/alberta-premier-dave-hancock-dismisses-charges-of-entitlement-and-corruption-in-progressive-conservative-party#comment-1316546842






So hancock says “And they think there’s some corruption. Give me a break. They don’t know what corruption looks like.”.
Well that may be mr.h but you and your party sure do.






It is the lawyers that are too stupid to make it in the law profession that jump to politics. Right Dave?





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      Some may indeed be able to make a better living in the private sector. Doubtful but possible. What they dont get in the private sector is the photo ops and more importantly the power that they crave. The power and the ability to make or break people is like an aphrodisiac to them. Once they have held it they are not able to resist the craving for more.






      • YOU SCRATCH MY BACK, I'LL SCRATCH YOURS





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            That would describe Jonathan Denis to a "T". Barely squeaked through law school, flunked his bar exam once or was it twice? I'd have more faith in the abilities of Lionel Hutz, mall lawyer or the big blue chicken from Futurama.






          If the PC's have nothing to hide, why are they hiding so much?
          1. Open up the books on the secret fund.
          2. Show us the documents that compared the 3 bids for the tobacco contract that was awarded to Redford's ex. Show us the choice was the best for Albertans not the PC party.
          3. Release all documents and the copies of the untendered contracts the PC cabinet signed with the powerline construction companies.
          4. Have an independant auditor review the Katz donations. The Chief electoral officers ruling showed he is clearly a party insider.
          How about it Dave, are you willing to let Albertans see or do you have a whole bunch to hide??????






          All this coming from the same man standing up in the legislature giving Alison Redford a standing ovation and back slap,...and a speech unrequested about her MOMness!!!
          What a tool!!!










            Hancock say,'' They know who the bosses are and have always known.'' DEAD WRONG. They have not known who the bosses are for over a dozen years. THE TAXPAYERS ARE THEIR BOSSES. DENY, DENY, DENY, that is what they are doing and it no longer works. The BIG issues, did he say they are doing great on the big issues. I consider health care a big issue and although we pour more money into it than any province by far we get some of the worst results. All that money does not go where it will do the most good. It goes where it will do the most good to the thousands of top dogs bank accounts. I consider ENERGY a big issue. We had a grid forced upon us that cost us billions and the ONLY reason it was built is so the energy giants can sell to the US. We didn't even need it but they said they wanted it so too bad so sad. As for the smaller issues Hancock, you might figure that working for your party for 6 months and getting a $100,000+ pay out is small but the public doesn't. You might figure tripping around the globe with a dozen people when a phone call or Skype would work is small but I don't. You might figure that $1000 for dinner for 3 is not a big issue but that would feed a family of 4 for 2 months quite nicely. It IS ALL THE SMALL ISSUES and your parties inept handling of most of the BIG ISSUES and your complete and total lack of being able to see one thing wrong that has sounded the death toll for your stinking poisonous party and the people of Alberta are FINALLY ready to amputate it from the province to save the province. Believe what you want Hancock but sane Albertans no longer believe a word you or your party utters. Have a lovely day everyone.






            So you condone the lies, the deception, the spin and doctoring? You condone pretending to balance the books while plunging us billions into debt? You condone flying friends and billing taxpayers, and trying to sneak in a palace in the sky and bill taxpayers for that too and when documents fly in the face of the lies and denial you condone the spin put into play once again?
            Wow, you go ahead and vote PC then....sheep.





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                I also mentioned the $180 million Miller West Pulp scandal, Multi-Corp, the $480 million West Edmonton Mall scandal, the $400 million mad cow bailout disaster, the $125 million failed ambulance transfer plan, the $16 BILLION electricity deregulation fiasco, crumbling infrastructure, such as roads, deaths of children in foster care, rip off royalty rates for our natural resources and bribing gullable people with their own money before an election or after a crisis. The Wildrose Party contains former PC's in their cabinet, so they will not get my vote either, just as the PC's won't. Did you not read my earlier posts?






              Wow, and we thought Redford was bad. Hancock is a real piece of work. Arrogance and ignorance...classic PC characteristics.
              "....you can do a lot better working in the private sector if that's what you're after." Ummm none of them can make it in the private sector, that's why they are in the public sector.







              Hancock is delusional if he thinks he could make more in the real world. In the real world, most people would be facing criminal charges if they defrauded their employer of hundreds of thousands of dollars. Alice Palace would result in jail time for real Albertans. Once again, the PC braintrust shows just how out of touch they are.






              “And they think there’s some corruption. Give me a break. They don’t know what corruption looks like.”
              The opposition and the rest of us know what corruption looks like, and if Hancock looks in the mirror he will see what it looks like to.






              • It's quite clearly time for Hancock to hit the highway, too. To say the things quoted in this article certainly shows just how out of touch and delusional he his. Deny, deny, deny. Don't face up to the problems which are obvious to just about everyone, it seems, but the temporary puppet. THIS is why the Tories need to go because you have to know that the majority of them feel exactly the same way.










                  Admit it Dave, there is nothing courageous about the Alberta PC Party or its members. If any of them were remotely courageous they would at the very least cross the floor and sit independent. If the PC party was truly there for the good of Alberta they would all resign.






                  "exhibit a"
                  the picture itself, have you ever seen such an engorged buffoon ?





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                      Yes , the Red deer south MLA which is PC. Only you wont be able to get a pic of him because he seems to be rarely in Alberta let alone the city he is supposed to be representing . It should be illegal to work full time at two Government positions because clearly one will suffer .How can you be Red deer south MLA and Minister of B.$.?











                      • The bizarre part of all this is that the PC's actually PAY advisers and communications "specialists" to come up with the arrogant babble of clowns like Hancock? Wow. Talk about throwing money down the drain.





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                            well he sure won't be leading the pcs into the next election






                          And I also remember the phrase Kingie Kleinie came up with: Shoot, Shovel and Shut Up! We have had this since 1994!






                          Hancock gives the all clear?
                          Well then it's settled I guess, NOT.
                          What an embarrassing ongoing farce these PC's are.
                          Polish up your resumes kids, you are getting the boot.






                          This BS will never end until the voters end it.






                          When he was a lawyer for the crown corporation
                          I worked for back in the 90's he was all about ethics and accountability...become
                          an elected official and he lost what is most needed in a politician










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                              Many scandals have happened with the Alberta PC's, from Don Getty on down. Albertans were bribed with their own money , more than once, so they had to ignore them.
                              -$600 million Nova Tel fiasco.
                              -Multi- Corp.
                              -$500 million Swan Hills scandal.
                              -$180 million Miller West Pulp scandal.
                              -$480 West Edmonton Mall scandal.
                              -$125 million failed ambulance transfer plan.
                              -$100 million AISH fiasco, complete with laughing and mocking the handicapped on camera.
                              -$400 million mad cow bailout disaster
                              -$3 million wasted on useless senators, when schools could not afford meals for hungry children.
                              -$16 BILLION (and climbing) electricity deregulation mess.
                              -rip off royalty rates for our natural resources.
                              -crumbling infrastructure, such as roads, which have lead to many deaths.
                              -numerous deaths of children in foster care.
                              -the St. Joseph's Hospital fiasco in Vegreville.
                              - privitization of everything in sight.
                              - complaining about a democratic deficit in Ottawa, yet supporting a virtual one party state right here in Alberta. -supporting corrupt dictators like Pinnochet.
                              --using the Heritage Savings Trust Fund to help pay down Alberta's debt.
                              -having a corrupt influence on other premiers, such as Mike Harris in Ontario. We know the disasterous consequences of that.
                              -bribing gullable people with their own money before an election or after a crisis.
                              So people in Alberta love to condemn scandal and waste when it happens elsewhere in Canada, even at the federal level, but love to ignore it when it happens here. Why?





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                            Hancock is entitled and corrupt. He's been a PC Party insider since 1972 for pete sake. President of the PC Youth Association in the 70's. Edmonton Whitemud board of directors under Don Getty in the 80's, Candidate in 1993 and MLA and Cabmin since '97. Hancock knows where all the skeletons are. Hancock has played a roll under every PC Premier this province has had.




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                            So there you go.
                            Comments by ordinary Albertans.
                            I don't know why they all voted for the PCs in the last election.
                            Maybe because they didn't like the Lake of Fire folks.
                            But now the PCs are shown to us in all their arrogance and disdain for the citizens. They don't seem to understand that the citizens are their bosses. We don't work for them. They work for us.
                            I don't think the Tories will win the next election.
                            Because most of us are tired of their arrogance and plain bad governance I think we will be moving on.
                            The Wildrosies might be the choice of rural Alberta and parts of Calgary but I doubt that most of Edmonton will vote for this party since they do not represent the forward thinking views of most citizens of cities.
                            I think the Wildrosies need a major philosophical shift away from their noxious beliefs that seem to be still current based on their recent voting record over a simple non-binding motion to encourage school boards to accept gay-straight kids to meet and greet at schools. I think if they can't even accept these sorts of matters with reference to our kids it is doubtful that they will be accepting of the non-heterosexual relationships of adults.
                            As such, they aren't really being nice folks in my mind.
                            And so why vote for them?
                            I mean they aren't that different from the Progressive Conservative Party of Alberta being as they are mostly originating from that tree of corruption.
                            I'd say they have done a good job in the opposition but who wouldn't if they had the money these folks are pulling in not only from citizens but from big oil?  They also have an advantage over the other parties in opposition since they seem to be privy to the secrets of the party of corruption. 

                            If anything the Wildrosies are the reinvented PC party that never happened in the original PC party.
                            Albertans will believe this is the new kid on the block but it is simply (in my mind) the reincarnation of the old corrupted PC party.
                            We need to start clean.
                            We need to find a new party and it ain't in either Tory party.
                            Nope.

                            The Tories have been on the teat of the bitumen cow for too long and it is now time to cut them all off the cash flow and send them to work in the private sector. 

                            It is amusing to see my MLA -Mr. Hancock pedaling so hard and getting no where on this bicycle of corruption issue that he is falling off here.  We need to see him spin his wheels like this often so that we never forget the utter disdain he has for his bosses. 







                            Alberta Premier Dave Hancock dismisses charges of entitlement and corruption in Progressive Conservative government

                            BY RICK BELL ,QMI AGENCY
                            FIRST POSTED: WEDNESDAY, APRIL 02, 2014 09:03 PM MDT | UPDATED: THURSDAY, APRIL 03, 2014 08:37 AM MDTDave HancockDave Hancock speaks to the media after a caucus meeting at Government House in Edmonton, Alberta on Thursday, March 13, 2014. Perry Mah/ Edmonton Sun/ QMI Agency
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                            Nothing to see here. Not guilty on both counts.
                            Premier Dave Hancock, less than two weeks on the job, delivers his verdict on Toryland.
                            Charge. The Progressive Conservative government has a culture of entitlement. Not guilty.
                            Charge. The Progressive Conservative government has corruption in its midst. Not guilty.
                            As the nasty stories pile up and the PC brand is bashed, battered and bruised, there is no sorry.
                            To apologize is to admit and be remorseful.
                            There is no admission and therefore no reason for a soul-cleansing act of contrition.
                            In fact, Hancock says culture of entitlement is “a term I really hate.”
                            He says any talk of a Tory culture of entitlement and corruption is “absolute garbage.”
                            As for the opposition Wildrose vowing a judge-led probe of allegations of Tory corruption if they win the next election.
                            “What a waste of money, time and energy,” says the premier.
                            “And they think there’s some corruption. Give me a break. They don’t know what corruption looks like.”
                            Hancock says nobody is in it for themselves.
                            “I certainly don’t see anybody who comes for their own self-aggrandizement in terms of privilege. You can do a lot better working in the private sector if that’s what you’re after.”
                            The premier, in charge until the PCs pick a new leader in September, says the government “needs to deal with the issues that have upset people” and “acknowledge mistakes” but he adds we have to look “at the big picture.”
                            That’s stuff like building schools and roads and hospitals “and for the most part people have recognized this is actually going well.”
                            He says other places have resources like Alberta “but they don’t have the strength of the economy, they don’t have the quality of life and that’s because we’ve been able to provide good government.”
                            So there.
                            He says Albertans “will forgive mistakes because they know people make mistakes. Nobody is perfect. What they’re looking for is good, competent, visionary leadership on the big issues.”
                            He says the job he and his PC party faces is more difficult in the age of social media “where things get torqued up more quickly than ever before.”
                            But two years is a long time and Hancock confirms the provincial law does not allow a ballot battle until 2016 unless the government is defeated in the legislature.
                            “Can we do it? Well, we have done it a number of times,” he says, of a comeback.
                            “Do you remember the phrase Miracle on the Prairie? Need I say more.”
                            That was 1993 when Ralph and his coattails took the down-in-the-dumps Tory party to victory when many thought they were goners.
                            Hancock also goes after the opposition.
                            “Those guys cannot touch us on the big issues and so they’re going to smearing and to casting aspersions on integrity issues and it’s just not there.”
                            What is there on Wednesday is Jim Dinning, budget boss under Ralph, slayer of the deficit dragon, the best premier Alberta never had.
                            Dinning mentions that word “entitlement.”
                            He says it breeds when governments and political parties forget they aren’t the boss.
                            Not so long ago, the Tories picked Unsteady Eddie Stelmach over Dinning to lead them.
                            That didn’t work.
                            Then came Redford. That really didn’t work. Guess they hope it’s three times the charm.
                            Dinning says he’d like a new leader to come from outside the current crop of Tory MLAs. He’s not running.
                            He wants “someone who’ll tackle with gusto the dysfunction within” from the party to the politicians to the paper shufflers.
                            He wants someone with “a conviction to purge any sense of entitlement.”
                            He says we should actually be able to understand the government’s books.
                            We need to see a return to the clear accounting rules of an earlier time when the province went from red ink to black ink, not the other way around.
                            Hancock says he agrees with Dinning there can’t be a culture of entitlement but then says he doesn’t think the Tories have one now.
                            “We need to know who the bosses are,” says Hancock.
                            “But we’ve always known and understood that.”
                            As for the books looking muddy it’s Dinning’s “opinion.”
                            No problem. Hancock says Dinning’s words are not a criticism. They are more “an outline of what he thinks needs to be taken into consideration.”
                            Just for the record, Hancock says he knew nothing about the planning of a plush penthouse suite for Redford “until just recently.”
                            He again says Redford took herself out of the game because of the continuing “distractions” and she was “courageous.”
                            Wildroser Rob Anderson can’t believe what he hears this day.
                            “Either this man is living in an alternative universe or under a rock,” says Anderson.
                            “Perhaps they need a few more lessons in humility and we’re here to help.”
                            rick.bell@sunmedia.ca